Nothing hurts quite like unrequited love...

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 04:24:20 GMT

And as everyone around me find their soul mate, I feel like I’m just wandering hoping that one day I’ll get my chance to find the one that I was truly meant to be with. I guess I consider it almost sickening how easily everyone around me is falling in love. Don't get me wrong now I’m really happy for those who have found love around me.. But I know that with optimism and hope, one day I’ll have my turn. I mean who believes in love at first sight, is that even possible? Shouldn’t love grow continuously? Why does it have to be so confusing! Why does gender even matter?! Love is love!! Love shouldn’t be based on limiting yourself to the type of person you seek. It should just come naturally, I guess. Every person I walk past I have to look into their eyes. Why? Because I’m searching. Hoping that if I look into that person’s eyes something will tell me that this is the person that I’m looking for. My soul mate. You probably think that I’m dumb for being so ignorantly blind. Searching for love is impossible in that manner, ne? Well I don’t think so. Aren’t you supposed to be able to read your lover’s expression through their eyes? Eyes are supposed to be windows into the soul. So shouldn’t it make perfect sense to want to stare into someone’s “soul?” Eh I guess you could say that I'm a sucker for romance novels, since everything seems to work so flawless for that couple. My life a storybook? I could only wish it would happen like that! Unrequited love, I don't even know if I'm considered to be in that category yet, I mean sure there's an image that I mentally project of the one that I want to be with, but there's no real physical person to fill that void. At least not yet. Soon though, as my timeless and fruitless seach continues I will find my love. The numbing pain in my heart will slowly cease and happiness will be in my future. This is my hope. My "nindo" I guess you could say!

じゃまたね～

新堂愁一

A day in the life of Shuichi Shindou^_^

Nothing hurts quite like unrequited love...